"You are all I need when I'm surrounded,
You are all I need if I'm by myself."
These lyrics have been playing in my head for over a week now. Agghhhhh.
I am an ENFJ, according to the Myers-Briggs personality test, and I certainly am fulfilled when I'm surrounded. But I'm not so good--ok, really bad--at being fulfilled when I'm by myself. It's funny how God is pushing me in all aspects of my life. Sometimes I wonder if I will soon learn all there is to know about myself.
Yeeaahh, right, He says with a smile.
Ha, so as of lately, I'm constantly being put in situations where I just have to be by myself. I plan things, they fall through. I plan things, and soon realize I have 100 pages of reading, a paper to write, an exam to study for, and am running on 4 hours of sleep. I plan things, the world is blanketed in white death. It's so easy to get discouraged in this solitude I'm being forced into, but I come to a halt in my tracks when I remember that I ASKED God to reveal my weaknesses. Oh, what short-term memories we (ok, I) have.
Being an extravert, I am re-energized in community. The past few weeks I have felt so strong and encouraged and full.
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 1That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." (2 Corinthians 12: 9-10)
Without my source of energy I am tired, exhausted, weak. I am being challenged, which is a delight in itself, but why must it be so tiring? I am not worried though, (and neither should you!), because joy is still here.
Winter doesn't last forever :)
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